~Akutsukai

It's been a while since I have even thought of doing one of these. So here is sorta and update. Life is what it is hahaha. Good bit of fun. And if you know what has been going on then your probably going to be one of the people to already know whats been happening. Just wanted to let folks know that I am still alive and for the most part a happy camper with the ups and downs of a normal everyday life that just tends to get fucked up a good bit. Well thats that and if you have a question do so ask it because that would be way easier than just babbling about like I have been.

Ok well its sad but I have found that right now I am attracted to even older music. I didn't think it was possible. I have been listening to the Righteous Brothers and Otis Redding a lot in the past few days, my god was music so kick ass back then. Not like all the bitch emo bullshit that we have today god I was surely born in the wrong decade, what I wouldnt have given to been born like in the 50s. That would have been so mother fucking kick ass you dont know how bad. Granted I probably would have drunk myself silly or done acid 75 no wait 76 yeah 76 times.

Still in a generally fucked up mood but thats just the way things are, getting better and worse. Odd how that seems. things aint supposed to be so fucked up but I have chopped it up to nothing more than life. So I honestly just say fuck it all.

Um and Fat Bottomed Girls you make the rockin world go round?

Name that song bitches and who sings it. And win a Brownie point.

Dont ever say can things get any worse. Because they can. No mater what bullshit your going through it can always get worse. I almost want to say never say you love someone because it will only lead to pain but I know better than that. But life is full of to much drama. I cant wait to go of to Daytona for college. I just have to figure out a way to pay for it. Once I was happy now I frown the days of old tell me not to sit around. My mind is warped and my heart is broke I go by each day wondering what god plays such a sick joke.

I really hate people again. And not just people just things about people. What happened to willpower? What happened to keeping your promises? I know I might not be the best person in the world but I have never broken a promise. I say what I mean even if it hurts. If you ask me something I try to be as truthful as I can be. I'm loyal to everyone I cae about. I lead with my heart even though I have a brain. Where are the people like me?

First holy shit. I have 400+ messages to look at. Missed 3 million deviations. Blew out a knee. Another one that is. Not sure on what life means anymore. God this sucks. I thought I would have more to say but I dont. If your glad to hear I am alive say so and Hey whatever.

....of Things.

Well I have started to do abslutly nothing. Great isnt it. I have truly become the ultimate slacker. I know what I have to do this year and really I dont want to but want to at the same time. Its just going to be had. Because I cant use my normal slacker ways to kick back and relax while others bust ass for my same grade. Oh well. I guess this is the weekly update. I am now getting back in RP. I did step away for a while but now I am there doing it to help me break any remaining pieces of the block I had. Well this is the update.